Only his love softens

when i was a child
my heart was new
clay in the hands of the potter

as i grew, my heart became firm
the clay grew harder
easily broken, easily hurt

many have held my heart of clay
many have shattered it
unaware of just how fragile it was

sometimes it is hard to trust
knowing that when i do,
my heart may break again

God, mold my heart of stone
teach me how to trust
i know now that only you can

a day in my life...

In my ever busy life, i still cant believe how peaceful God is. Lately, it seems like everything has been piling on. Cleaning, yard work, trying to look for a job, and motivating myself to exercise, whew. It makes me tired to even think about it! But, in the midst of it all, i can still find peace in God. Isn't it amazing how, even when our world is crashing down, God still remains. Peaceful, wise, and the great thing is, he loves us just as much on our bad days as he does on our good ones. And he cares deeply about how we feel. There is nothing that is too big or too small for Him. I stand in awe. The more i see of him, the more i feel totally NOT worthy. But in that place, he shows me how much he loves me.

AH! I've been tagged!

I have been tagged by "A Woman Who Is" so it looks like everyone will get to know a little more about me! be careful, you could be next... :0)

1. What I was doing 10 years ago

Well, ten years ago I was 5, so i had just started Kindergarten. My little brother Pari was 1 year old (I am so happy he is older now!) and i remember my mom being really stressed out with all four of us and my dad working nights. Whew! I feel tired just thinking about it!

2. My Favorite Snacks

popcorn
m&m's
oreos
cheesecake
ice cream
ritz crackers
cheesitz (however you spell them!)
the list is fairly endless....

3. 5 things on my to-do list today
mow the lawn
clean the RV (we are selling it)
watch Zoolander
relax and do absolutely NOTHING
get my aunts house ready for her to live in it (she's moving here to prosser on wednesday! so exciting!!!)

4. Things i would do if i was a millionaire
i would go to africa and help orphans
go to Europe!!
go shopping
help finance people's mission trips
help my family pay off debts
pay for all of my ballet tuition

5. Five Jobs I have had
baby sitting
cherry picking
orchard work (oy, never easy)
helping my mom pay bills, write checks etc...
house sitting

6. Five bad habits of mine
ignoring people if i don't want to talk to them
snorting when i laugh (ha ha)
burping in public
talking WAY too loud
eating too much!

7. Five Places I have lived
Olympia, Wa
Richland, Wa
Prosser, Wa
not quite 5!!!

8. 5 random things people don't know about me
I am in ballet, and i am about to start pointe! I'm SO excited!!
I love screamo and hardcore music (it makes me happy!)
I almost never read, so i'm a pretty slow reader
I love to sketch
blue-green is my favorite color

9. 5 CD's i'd have on a desert island
red "end of silence"
ivoryline "there came a lion"
The Afters "never going back to ok"
cool spiritual music
frank sinatra "platinum collection"

10. People I want to get to know better... yes you have been tagged!

Now, lets see who will play...

Jess

Playing in the light

Tall Vanilla Soy

Grace

Today, everything changes

Have you ever thought about that? how every day is a new day, things are never the same as they where yesterday. A while ago, Tom spoke on holding on lightly to places, people and possessions. I don't think that everyone realized that that message was not only for then, but now as well. I have recently discovered that that message is truer and wiser than i had given originally given Tom credit for. My Aunt, Uncle and two cousins are moving here next Tuesday, and it just hit me that my life will never be the same again after they move here. Sometimes letting go of things that are not so obvious or material can be hard. I was just listening to the song by red called "already over", and at one point it says, "Give it all to you, letting go of me, reaching as i fall, i know it's already over now. Nothing left to loose, loving you again! I know its already over now!" what a message. It's already over, there is nothing to loose. Give it all to him, its already over. He has it all under control...

Only in the storm

Peace
how do we understand it?
why don't we feel it?

Only when the storm comes
do we realize how much we need it

Only when the storm comes
do we understand who made it

We find ourselves running
from him who pursues

Looking for the thing that we know
will never satisfy

Only in the storm
can we find the only one who will satisfy

the river that never runs dry
all we have to do is persue