Life's Journal Entry

Lord, show us our faults! in your mercy, don't let us blindly hurt those we love, they are so precious! Take us into a divine romance with you, no one can ever take the place of you, show me that your intimacy is more than anything i could ever experience on this earth. Lord, these are just words in my life's book, write the rest of my pages, life is nothing without them. You never pass bye, you never fail, draw me closer. Show me the new thing, don't let me settle for the old.

The Winds of Change

Why do we resist? Is it because we think our ways are better? Maybe because the way we do things are safe, comfortable, predictable. But do we enjoy the way we do things? Nothing ever can or ever will overshadow the adventure of doing what God is doing. I keep hearing the phrase in the back of my mind, "no more counting the cost". Hmm, maybe He is saying that because we are in a season where counting the cost would be detrimental to our faith. It's time to step out on a limb, no more counting the cost. Lately, i have found that God is asking me to do old things in a new way, things that i didn't do a long time ago. In his mercy he gives us a second chance. It's time for us to do, not speak.

A different dimention

I just watched "Pleasantville", and 90's movie with Reese Witherspoon and Toby Macguire. The movie is about two teenagers who are fighting over the TV remote one night. One wants to watch the "pleasantville" marathon (a 50's show where the entire world is perfect), the other a rock concert. A strange man comes to their house with a "remote" that ironicaly places them in the world of Pleasantville. Everything is in black and white, and everyone has the appearence of perfection. Things are all perfect, but the two from the real world aren't happy. No one knows anything outside of pleasantville. Until, one day, everything changes. When people start realizing that they have emotions, feelings, and strange things that make them different. Color starts showing up, the black and white gone. The people of Pleasantville didnt even know that color exhisted. The pages that had always been blank in books where now filled with words. It started me thinking that maybe there is so much more to life than we can even fathom. Color, words, a new demention... that would be so amazing! i dont know, random thoughts! i cant wait to see what God has for us in the future, so much to explore!!

Falling back again...

Sometimes, we live thinking that if we just ignore God for a while, that he wont find us again. And like the last time, He shows us that we are STILL nothing without him. As i grow older, i find myself caught up in the "now", soaking up every teenage experience that i possibly can (nothing illegal, have no fear :0) ). And in the thrill of it all, sometimes i forget what a gift it is to BE a daughter of the king; at peace, resting on his chest, breathing in His breath. You forget what a treasure it is. My life is filthy rags, and as always, i find that i have nothing in and of myself of true value but his light. God, you are SO merciful... i am constantly reminded of how important it is to have such great and mature leaders that can show me that there is SO much more to this life than the way everyone else is living it. God, make me broken. Lord, if it means that every time i fall, i fall harder, than so be it. If it brings me closer to you, i would live though anything... there is nothing sweeter